For the past few weeks I’ve felt really…*drumroll*
I don’t like feeling gloomy for such a long time. Never never never. Gloomy is good but only for a short while. Make it longer than a week and I’m going to start having problems. I’m not even sure why I felt like that. I didn’t have anything personally traumatizing happen to me recently. Perhaps life (angry version) just decided it was time to finally make me an adult and paint me the general cynicism that comes with it. Most “adults” are like that anyway and I don’t even blame them. But that’s not me.
Maybe it was just because I haven’t got out of the house other than doing necessary purchases (mostly FOOD bwaha) in that time frame. Maybe. So I decided to do an experiment. I got out of the house yesterday and visited a friend. During the trip nothing major happened other than seeing a man with a child suffer from a nervous breakdown inside a jeepney.
I know. It was so sad. 😦 Tsk. (I’m going to write about that soon because that is a post in itself.)
Other than that, I was really exhausted, but boy, I had F-U-N at last! My friends and I ended up making song covers, see, and here’s the one I made the most mistakes in hahahaha! The trip back home was more than an hour and when I arrived, I was too tired to even change my clothes before going to bed. But you know what, I didn’t sleep that good for a long time (a.k.a few weeks) now.
Did my experiment work?
I can’t say for sure–I still have that Meh/Neutral/Life-Sucks-and-Always-Will overall disposition–but I’m glad I did it. I always had fun hanging out with different people now that I think of it…yeah, I really should do it more. This is getting so long already and I’m just spewing out detail after detail of my personal life, sorry.
I just want to say that I want to be happy. Well who doesn’t? And if you don’t…REALLY?
Happiness is quite a reach. Perhaps I should start with Positivity, yes?