My husband’s going to turn thirty this year and I’m not very far from it either. For the past couple of years, we’ve noticed increasing aches and discomfort in our bodies, but most of the action happens in our left legs. We both think we wouldn’t mind losing our left legs as long as we get artificial replacement–surely that is better than constant pain, right? These symptoms are probably just happening because we’re getting older. I’ve seen many doctors regarding my condition and had so many diagnostic workup done but until now I haven’t received a certain diagnosis. The last … Continue reading Growing Old, Growing Pains
Twenty-five years in this planet. I feel blessed. Continue reading 25
Trump just attacked Syria. I try not to think about it. But I do. These thoughts concerning the possibility of a third world war got me … Continue reading If I Could Go Back in Time and Talk to the Younger, Awkward-er Me
Seeing news about Syria just makes me depressed. It just makes you feel so helpless. If only there is one quick way to stop it. Anyone … Continue reading The Thing About Syria
I’m currently in love with the song Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen. This is nothing special. But I had to sing it. I blame the rainy day. Continue reading Not Someone Who’s Seen the Light
Last Saturday I had a therapeutic session. The only thing I had to do was shout my heart out. No, it wasn’t a doctor’s appointment. Nor was … Continue reading The Therapeutic Wonder of Shouting at a Sporting Match
Ever since I started writing again (this was about five years ago) I dreamt of creating some of the most fantastic speculative fiction anyone will ever read. And of course like most dreams, this one had a sudden, tragic death. … Continue reading 47 Rejections…and Counting
It feels like it’s so much to ask. Continue reading Dystopian Probability
In the past week, scrolling through my social media feed had been a torture. I still find it hard to believe that Trump–the epitome of everything despicable about the human society–is the current president of the United States of America. It is so tempting to just hide and resign to the thought that there’s really nothing to be done about it now. Seeing news regarding his latest assaults to human decency takes its toll. It is demoralizing. It is exhausting. But just accepting or ignoring the blunders of this atrocious person is not a choice. It should never be. There … Continue reading Yes, the Trump Presidency is Depressing. But the Last Thing We Should Do is Hide
I am a minimalist. Normally I wouldn’t use such a popular label onto myself, but that is what would accurately describe my lifestyle right now. It wasn’t something that I just discovered, not at all. It was a product of … Continue reading Minimalism and Dreams
I miss my fat nephews so bad. Especially Apollo. We were play and tickle buddies. Now we only do that in Skype, but it’s not as fun. Because I never get to squish his plump body or hear him laugh … Continue reading Tita and a Fat Creature
This is my first winter. Yes, I consider now to be winter already despite it won’t technically be that season yet until the 21st. The cold and the glum skies could really affect your mood. It’s easy to succumb to … Continue reading Winter Could Be Depressing
I wonder if bitterness is something everyone embraces more as we get older. Perhaps. Life has a way of beating you up at certain times. One day you could be blissful for something wonderful happening in your life. Next day, you … Continue reading What Do Bitter People Live For?
Because obviously, “President” Trump. I am not an American citizen, so I had no power whatsoever in helping to influence the outcome of the US elections. Still, I feel like throwing a fit and acting “immature” because I did not get the result I wanted–NOT Trump. I feel upset. Hopeless. Anxious. At a loss as to how thinking people could actually elect such a racist, misogynistic, equality-hating human being to lead them. It makes me think that the world is going backwards instead of forward. That I am actually living with people who are still afraid and hateful of people … Continue reading I Hate Being in America Right Now
I want to lose weight. Even just the weight I put on for the past year is fine, I’m not greedy. Especially because wedding is approaching and I wanna look my best-est self by then (since pictures and the image … Continue reading Diet Fail. AGAIN.