Just one look at you. That’s all it ever takes to remind me how beautiful life is.
You can’t blame me. The way you tamed me with your gentleness is a feat I thought unattainable. No, I don’t love everything about you. I hate it how easily you fall asleep as our passion ebbs. But I love it how you make certain I’m attached to your body, that close, before you go to Morpheus’ realm.
I never thought I could be this lucky. If I should be honest, I never really thought we could last this long – 4 months is the longest I’ve given us. But look how it turned out.
All those times, the bad and the good, I will cherish until my end. I am scared, frightened, paralyzed to death we might lose our love for each other. If someone will ask me what I am most afraid of then that should be it; that we could become strangers again. And that we will never find our way back.
Still I don’t let this thought cripple me, again, thanks to you. You’re always the positive one, telling me the absurdity of this paranoia because as long as I don’t give up on you then we’ll always be together.
But what if you would give up on me?
That’s what sends shiver down my spine, heck, my whole being to be exact. But you just lure me to your embrace and say it will never happen. Ah! The naiveté. That’s what draws me into you, I think. I could use an extra dose of that, considering where I come from.
Yet the idea that you could never be The One looms in the air – for how could I have been so lucky to find my one, true love at such a young age? And if that’s not enough, my one true love actually loves me back, if not even more?
People have used, some have wasted, many years of their lives waiting. Constantly, consciously or not, searching for a love like ours. Many are still yet to find it. More have already given up. I think of these people and it breaks my heart, but not because of any noble thought. No, it was rather driven by selfishness – for I believe I will end up just like them if ever I will lose you.
“But you wont”, that’s what you would say.
Ha! I know. I know.